Diamond Jackie

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 21:40:44 GMT

Vancouver IS full of snobs and ignorant people.
We are not a "friendly city",
and never will be.

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 05:29:57 GMT

last Canada day I spent the early morning being tired and sad that I'd never see a chum again once we got off the boat, then proceeded to avoid breakfast and win a wimpy sleeping bag in a raffle. Later that afternoon I spend time with some other chums, on the grass and on a boat. they popped my balloons.
This Canada day I made $90 in tips at work and went to new apartment to sign papers and get keys. Later that evening the Dutch and I went downtown and found sanctuary at the Buffalo Club.
I fell inlove with a boy.
I also spent my entire tips from that day, getting home at nearly 4am, and then passing out.

I think this one was better.

economy sized dreams of hope

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 06:42:55 GMT

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii don't know what to do!!

I've been having really bad dreams lately. well, it was only when I was home on the coast the past few nights, but I surely didn't like it. I got back today and went to the thrift store and bought records. Moving is going to be a great thing, a fresh new start, and loads of sunlight! I have a vision of exactly how my new room will be, this one now is nice, but its only a room, it doesnt feel like MY room even though all my belongings are glued to the carpet, like how they were at home. Also I'll only be 4 blocks away from Kirsten, and closer to others from work too. I feel good that I've solidified my future plans for school and I'm really looking forward to them. I've found what I want to do finally. I'm happy. Some situations could be better than they are at the moment socially, but they will probably work themselves out in the long run. Whatever happens is what is meant to be. I really apreciate home now, yesterday was a weird day there and I now know that despite my need to get out and start over and new somewhere, I can't leave them right now, they need me.

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 18:35:43 GMT

I cried myself to sleep last night.
life is beautiful.
Everything is going good for me at the moment.

except

for the fact that my baby is dying. The one whose been with me through everything, who I have told everything.
its not fair.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 01:07:32 GMT

kat says:

yeah, dumb rich douche is all i can say

nightie of the living dead says:

obviously an only child

nightie of the living dead says:

who has never loved a pet

nightie of the living dead says:

and therefore is a selfish douche

nightie of the living dead says:

and should have his head sat upon by a duck

kat says:

a dirty duck

nightie of the living dead says:

a diseased dirty duck

kat says:

that sneezes constantly

nightie of the living dead says:

and poos pretty much nonstop

kat says:

liquid

kat says:

or even better, soquid.

nightie of the living dead says:

a little bit of both

kat says:

scandalous

nightie of the living dead says:

the most scandalous duck to ever sit upon someone's head

more like, Brokeback SUCK.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 07:06:41 GMT

home!
love love love it!
had a good ol roast beef dinner like usual and then watched ppv movies all night. What was the big hype about Brokeback Mountain? I found it boring and highly overrated, I believe I am the only person who feels this way though, so whatever. My viewing pleasure was redeemed with a Woody Allen movie afterwards, so all was well in the end.
I cried when I came home because I thought my baby (t-cat) was dying... but he seems alright now, I guess he's just old.
um, yeah. I still despise the coast, but being here on the estate feels like a vacation from reality, not to mention how much I now notice the quality of the air an water here vs the city. gross.
after working 26 days straight, this being my only day off finally, I am reallllllly not looking forward to going back so soon to work tomorrow night. boo.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 08:05:03 GMT

ok, Kat needs a new life.
very soon.

I think when we goto California.. I'll just stay there.
yeah.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 07:55:32 GMT

I can finally write again! I got my good book back!
my happiness about this really doesnt make sense, but I'm just really attached to a certain ruled book and i havent been writing these past months simply because I didnt have it.
so yay.
Also, work is spledid, I'm making big dolla in tips now, I don't even think I'll take to Aquarium job now, I value free time if I'm still bringing home a wad of cash a night.
we move soon, hoorah!
I CANT WAIT.
I ate an ant today. I think that is pretty self explanitory as to how much I look forward to moving.

and I FINALLY get to go home next week <3
I miss my kitties and pup.
and my Bro.

and tomorrow night I get to be home alone, which I'm actually really looking forward to, this week has been loads of fun, but I need a break from the crrrrrazy party life.

ahhhh everything is so nice at the moment.
now all I need is a gangsta.
goddamn Miami.

woot

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 22:00:50 GMT

hey! on lighter notes,
I got the job at the Aquarium, taking pics of tourists, 10 smacka an hour!
AND today was my first day serving finally, and I made super good tips.
Things are only going uphill now with tha moola.

this means I can goto California!
yay!

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 10:21:38 GMT

Fuck!
I'm just going to move to an island where no one knows me or expects anything from me. Why don't people listen when I say something literally an hour earlier about how I feel.
screw you all.

(except the select few that are approved to join me on the island.)

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 09:31:13 GMT

It's 230am.
I'm hungry and not tired, a bit thirsty too.
I'm laying here naked, after an odd night hanging out with the boys and Amanda, everyone else is sleeping by now I believe.
I'm calming myself with Blonde on Blonde, and well, only I know what kinda of mood I am in when I listen to that album.
I think I am done with whats been going on the past while with my social circle, for real. I feel... used up.

hmmm.
I really miss having Torey around. really. a lot.

shot calla

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 08:27:58 GMT

I like those Monday nights, where you go downtown with your roomie and goto a salsa club to try and find a hottie's birthday gala, but feel out of place, so then stop by the Cellar and grab a drink and watch a live band play a good cover of Sunday Morning, with a hot girl singer who has good fashion sense, and then you go further down and end up at the Cambie and sit in the smoke room with two pints and some random north van gangsta sit with you and talk about restaurants and put their hats on your head and then you leave with them because the place closes and wander the streets gradually back upto Granville, wearing killer heels and wanting to cry because your feet hurt so much and then you catch a bus with the boys and get off and instantly take of your shoes and walk barefoot back upto your house and make salmon sanwhiches and listen to rap and then fall asleep afterwards.
yeah, I like those Mondays.

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 06:14:06 GMT

tears of regret.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 00:03:41 GMT

in the year one, that was_{Lutz Seiler}

scraping on the ground, scratched up
silence &
folded by death: winter flies.

the first – a wartime fall when
things have already been
run through by a nerve, ignited by

the air. across the field, the battue
brings back the gravity
of the tracks distances

shrink & whoever
happens to be on the move vanishes
in his thoughts: you

see the fish spool men coughing in
great waves onto fragile strands. when
what merely travels scraps us, you hear

horses in the drain, clatter &
a breeze that
blows chemically up

from the sewers; you eavesdrop, bewitched, maybe
there are still magic spiders
squatting in the old radio voices, tiny, well
hidden, only
an itch in the ear
of relativity

pissin the niiiiiight awaaay

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 07:52:01 GMT

I'm bored with all my music right now. all my 4,000+ songs. whats a girl to do?

I think this past weekend should have been different, for various reasons.

and I think my throat is sore, I better not be getting sick again.

and I think I'm rambling.

I hate being mad at people, I'm glad everythings cool with chums now.

we get new carpets tomorrow.

I miss my T-cat.

On saturday I am going to ask out a boy. why not. <3

yayness

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 04:52:32 GMT

yay for moving soon!
yay for apartment!
yay for penut butter!

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 16:48:37 GMT

oh gee....
what did I do?

best day of my life. literally.

Wed, 31 May 2006 06:00:40 GMT

yes yes yes!!!

HA, hey there Maggie Chilton, you cannot belittle me or treat me like a moron infront of everyone anymore.
WHY?
because you're FIRED!!!!

bitch.
I win! as does everyone else who you tormented with your awful perky accent.

yes yes yes yes!!!

Tue, 30 May 2006 08:39:21 GMT

dear someone I dont even know:

I think you are a slut-bag hussy, you are rude and you think you're so unique and cool because you know all this weird foreign crap. thankyou for stealing the attenion away from my significant other. I'm glad you like records and Bob Dylan, I'm glad you like odd movies and are fashionable (apparently.), and from what I hear you are just as much of a bitter social at a party as he is. You can have that loser, you two will be suited well together. my thankyou is true and honest because I've realized how much better off I am without him in my life. Although you have done me a favor, I do truely dispise you.
goodluck with him.

sincerly,
the crazy ex girlfriend.

Sun, 28 May 2006 09:34:46 GMT

it's 2:33 am.
it's raining outside.

Wed, 24 May 2006 08:11:40 GMT

Boo to Wednesdays when boys take flights to Miami.
but un-boo to funny/drunk douche bags over the phone.
boo to nerds dumping incredidibly suave girls.
un-boo to ICE CREAM AND HAIR BALLS.

Tue, 23 May 2006 07:19:33 GMT

I dont really know what to say about the weekend. It was LONG.
I need my space, and I think not getting enough time to myself makes me crack up sometimes, But on the other hand I do have a lot of fun when people are here, when they're not annoying douches...
Andrew is gone.
Eric is back.
Drew is leaving.
and Sam is still around.
I dont really care about that stuff right now though, I'm really enjoying being single at the moment, although some guys at work are now hitting on me more since they found out Drew is overwith, and its weird. I really miss Andrew at work, especially the nights that he used to close, and now it seems Mike has picked up those shifts. I hope he gets kicked out of the states and comes back. For a second today I really missed Sam. He told me he was watching my favorite documentary. And one of his was on TV today, but everyone was too bored with it.

I've said this before, but lately I feel really disoriented with me vs reality and future. I cant decide on any plans, I dont know what I am going to goto school for yet. All I know is that its stressing me out to a point where I cant sleep without worrying about financial issues, school, family worries, friends/relationships, jobs, and my own health.
One thing I like though, I feel a lot better lately now that we're eating normal food and I actually can eat fruits and veggies again. I also havent smoked or drank for a while now, and I like it. I like knowing that I dont have an addictive personality (only with music).
What I dont like is when people think I am predictable and that they know me so well. Its just not possible. I know who I am now, finally, and theres a lot of things I dont share with people, and I have changed a lot from the past. I love it. I love it so much, because finally I can meet fresh people, and they dont have pre-constructed opinions of me from what they have heard from other people or how I have acted before.
I like being a mystery.
one you'll never solve.

wow.

Tue, 16 May 2006 06:27:13 GMT

When I am a famous director or cinematographer,
and am asked what inspried me to become one?
the movie that I will respectfully speak of will be

Stay

Marc Forster is an amazing man,
one day I will be him.

you can all quote me on that.

I got my mommy flowers :)

Mon, 15 May 2006 08:10:45 GMT

I have never felt more single.
and although I am saddened that Miami is stealing away my only desire,
I have never been happier to be free!!

ps. i really like running into old friends on a lonesome ferry ride home too, and i love being home. I've missed my pets soooo much.

this is all pretty random, but I'm just in a blissful mood.

AND I just watched an episode of House in a new oversized fancy leather chair, on a marvellous TV, and ate a full course roast beef dinner leftovers.

Kat loves life.
yes.

Fri, 12 May 2006 06:28:05 GMT

Your 2005 Song Is

Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz

"Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me."

In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

what a fun song.
what a fun year.